April 2012
5 posts
Saying Goodbye as I close the door....
Feeling sorry for ones self never changes much,
It doesn’t change the way things are, have been, or could be.
Why sit at home crying for days,
Putting your mind in a never ending maze.
There are things I regret, yes.
There are things I wished had passed the test,
People who i wished knew I gave it my very best.
People are suppose to flow in and out of your life.
Sometimes it hurts like your heart stabbed with a knife.
I want to tell you something that I didn’t tell you then,
Everyday with you felt like a win.
Now everyday feels so empty and dry,
The hardest thing I have done was tell you goodbye.
You told me you could never love me,
You said friendship was all it could ever be.
However, keep this in mind,
I remember every word you said that was kind.
I remember every time you held the phone,
Knowing that you were out of your zone.
I tried so hard to be the best I could,
I tried so hard to be the girlfriend that i knew I should,
But I see now that you never thought I would.
Why put up with me if you knew the truth for so long,
What favor were you doing for me for so long.
I accepted everything about you,
I loved everything about you.
I accepted flaws and all,
I hope letting me go makes you feel real tall.
I let you leave without a fight
Even though every word said was sucking my world of all light.
I don’t know if you got scared or really never cared,
But I was nice and was always there.
But you want these girls who hurt you and make you cry,
If that is what you want, then I will give you your wanted goodbye.
The bible states don’t hold on to a life that doesn’t hold yours,
For they will keep your heart pinned to the floor.
So I will pack my pictures and all my memories,
And quietly walk out your heart, saying goodbye as I close the door.
